In the English school system, I am in Year 10 (which is 4th year at Hogwarts for anyone who doesn't know) and so that means that in ALL of my subjects, except P.E, I have started work on the topics that I will be tested on next year for my GCSEs (or O.W.Ls if I went to Hogwarts...I could, you don't know me!) and that is a LITTLE bit scary.
Next year I'm going to be sitting exams that are probably going to affect the outcome of the rest of my life, and I have to remember what I'm learning now for then??? I can't even remember what I had for dinner last night, how does school expect me to remember all of this????
Anyway, enough of that panic for now since there'll be time for that next year. What I have been panicing about? The fact that I may or may not have spelt 'panicing' wrong and you're all going to tell me about it? Not anymore, I looked it up on Word. Nope, I am panicing over the fact that this year I have started doing my controlled assessments and they are worth part of my actual GCSE and these are the first tests I have ever done that actually MEAN something.
I got the results back from a 2000 word comparitive essay between Great Expectations and Macbeth yesterday and I was a little bi scared of what I would get, after all this essay was worth 25% of my English Literature GCSE, but I actually did ok. I got 32 out of 40 so overall that's not so bad but still...
It's like when you go to see a movie, or when you're on a rollercoaster. The period of time just before whatever you're about to do/see is always the most suspense filled few minutes of your life (or at least that's what it feels like) and my body can't handle too much of that. I already get waaaaaaay too nervous/excited before movies start (I don't even have to be part of that fandom, I just get a bit bouncy and a bit scared and just a bit like 'aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh') and now we have this as well?
Ugh, my body is NOT ready for this.
Not to mention the suspense in the few minutes BEFORE you arrive in a lesson where you will be writing your ACTUAL Controlled Assessment, that one's bad. I've just started my Music composition (which is the Controlled Assessment for that subject. Why did I take Music again? Oh right, because I'm an idiot) and the nerves just before the music lesson? It was bad. It was very, very bad. Then I just flagged down the teacher and said something along the lines of "Help, please" and he took me through it step by step.
Sooooo yeah, I think I am going to need help by the end of this year, or an outlet for everything I'm feeling. That outlet is now you. I hope you take this responsibilty seriously, I'm trusting you with my sanity.
Okay, even I couldn't keep a straight face at that one, I lost my sanity LOOOOOOONG ago.
Until tomorrow, toodle pip.
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